When the fruit of your personal work shows up in difficult moments, it makes the work worthwhile. It can deepen relationships, expand understanding, and encourage more trust and honesty. Tonight, that fruit showed up in a painful situation, but I’m so encouraged and appreciative that I was a witness to my own growth. It makes me want to be even better, certainly because I displayed a better version of myself than I have in the past, but also because I saw how it could benefit someone else and make a bad situation better.
It brings tears to my eyes because yesterday, I talked about vulnerability. In a tough moment, I leaned into the truth of my heart and allowed myself to be vulnerable and stand for what I wanted and fight for what and who matters to me, and in return, I received vulnerability. It was beautiful—even in the messiness. I was able to walk away wanted to be more. Wanting to do more, love more, give more, wanting to be more honest. I just wanted more. I didn’t walk away with any negative emotions or thoughts. I didn’t come away with any stories. I was present and honest and shared my heart at the moment that counted. And in return, I received a whole-hearted response. It’s a strange thing for me to have joy and be so hopeful and forward-looking after a challenging and emotional episode, but here I am.
I know none of that would have happened if I hadn’t been sincere about my personal work. None of it would have happened if someone special hadn’t pushed me when I didn’t want to be pushed. There wouldn’t have even been space for vulnerability if I hadn’t been tapping and meditating over the last few weeks. I wouldn’t have cleared out some of the old and trapped negative energy in my body or created mental space to gain more awareness of myself and others. The work continues.