It’s 9:53pm and I had nothing today. My day wasn’t bad, but my energy has been non-reflective. I’ve kind of been here. I don’t have much of an explanation. I guess that means I haven’t been very present today. I did my exercises this morning and it was great, but then work took over. As I’m writing I guess I see what happened. My day was immersed in work. And I am uncomfortable because I’m in a new role and things feel a little overwhelming. So, by the time I got off, I was drained. It’s actually been that way for the last three days. I realize now that I lost my enthusiasm for the journey today. I fell back into my routine and wasn’t very intentional about listening to positive and uplifting material, breathing, and being aware of my thoughts.
I wasn’t going to post because I didn’t feel like I had anything to say. But I guess this is a space to be reflective and learn from today. I see how quickly I can fall back into old routines and habits if I’m not intentional and allow the ebbs and flows of life to carry me with them. I’ll take this opportunity to remember what I’m doing and why I’m doing it, and also focus on the benefits I’ve experienced so far.
I’ll also take me sitting down to write tonight as me showing some resilience by not completely abandoning the path. This is usually how I fall off the wagon whenever I start something. I start out super excited and then life happens and I stop. I’m actually going to apply what I’ve learning to life when it starts happening instead of succumbing to my emotions and thoughts. That makes me proud of myself. More trust built.