I found myself singing while making vegan cocoa in the kitchen this morning. Singing isn’t out of the ordinary for me, but I definitely don’t do it early in the morning. Not only was I singing, I was singing with joy—loud and out of control. It was great. I just felt so good. The best part about it was once I noticed how freely I was singing, I allowed myself to continue singing and to experience such a joyous feeling. I didn’t judge my behavior and censor myself. I just enjoyed the moment. It didn’t hurt that the acoustics in the kitchen made my voice sound immaculate. That encouraged me to continue too.
I know this space that I’m in right now has so much to do with me practicing my new disciplines. I think what’s been so powerful so far, is how my decision to be intentional about taking care of myself—my whole self—has given me a sense of confidence and belief in myself and a feeling that I can do so much more. For me. that’s a really big thing. For the last ten years it’s been very difficult for me to chase my dreams and to push forward with business ideas because I had not proven to myself that I can trust myself. And once that manifested in my body, it became even more difficult.
What’s coming along with meditating, tapping, and moving my body is the gift of mental clarity, peace and an overall sense of wellness. That feeling—the one I felt this morning—is generating belief in me. Hope in me. Things something that I haven’t had in years. It’s generating excitement about future possibilities. What could be and what I could be, as I go forward in allowing the truth of who I am to be, without explanation or negotiation.
I’m motivated to continue. I like the feeling of taking care of myself in such an intimate way. I like that I am learning about myself and learning to accept myself, leaving the judgement behind. I’m beginning to see myself in a way I haven’t before and I’m kind of giddy about it.
My mind is clearing. My heart is softening. My body is healing. And I am unfolding.